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            Going on the supernatural aid scavenger hunt journey really made me stand back and think about who I am and consider what qualities I truly feel like I would like to develop even more.  I went on most of this journey alone and made a conscious effort to try not to overhear where any items were if others happened to be talking about it. 

            In order to decide which qualities I wanted to go for, I really thought about myself and how I act in a day and the way I sometimes wish I could act.  The first medicine I thought I needed was Wisdom.  It happened that on the day I went to hunt for this clue, I was feeling sick to my stomach and my head hurt and I was about to call my mom and see if I could just go home.  I remember really wishing that I could just push through because that would have been really be a bad day to miss because I had four tests and I had only taken one of them, but I felt really bad.  Then I got the little slip of paper and couldn’t believe how well it fit my situation.  It said, “grow-1. To come into being or be produced naturally  2. To develop to thrive, as a living thing  3.  To increase in size, quantity.”  Number 2 was exactly what I needed!  I also think I need wisdom in the rest of my life.  For me, wisdom means more than just being smart.  Wisdom is being at peace with your mind and body and being comfortable in your world.  Sometimes I have a hard time being ok with who I am and I don’t feel like I really fit in very much of the time.  It’s probably mostly in my head and me acting on my tendency to overanalyze peoples’ reactions, but I just feel different.  I would like to grow to have more wisdom and get over the border that I seem to have built up that makes me feel like I’m on the outside.

            The second medicine I hunted for was Strength, and I thought it was only fitting that Mrs. McCarthy had it!  Earlier today I was actually discussing this assignment with my brother, Pat, and he was looking through my bag asking which clue went with which item.  When we got to sand, neither of us could really give a good reason for why the sand would represent strength.  Eventually Pat made a joke by saying, “duh, it’s because even though sand is so smooth and flowy, it’s still strong enough to hold a whole beach together!”  My initial reaction was a mix of frustrated laughter, but then I thought about it and realized that he was kind of right (as much as I hated to admit it because he bragged about his depth of knowledge for the rest of the afternoon!).  I wanted to get strength because, for me, it means being a soft personality on the outside, but when times get hard, being a rock for yourself and others. 

            The third medicine I searched for was Patience.  I really liked that patience was a spool of thread.  For me, that is the ultimate test of my patience.  Doing any kind of sewing project or using a needle and thread for any type of anything is frustrating beyond belief for me!  It worked well!  I think I REALLY need to work in my patience.  Especially with myself.  I tend to get really frustrated when I can’t do something on the first try or when I get a paper with print that is too small because I feel like it’s my fault.  I feel like I should have been able to do a certain task without any trouble because other people did, or I feel like I should be able to see the print on the paper because everyone else can.  Even though I know that these things are completely subjective and things are different for everyone because we are all different people, I still get very impatient sometimes.

            The fourth medicine I went for was Courage.  Making Courage a crayon sort of made me think of little kids that do drawings in kindergarten that get hung on the refrigerator when they go home.  I have always sort of thought that these were the purest forms of expression and courage.  Kids aren’t worried about what anyone else will ever think of what they draw or have to say…they just do it.  I feel like Courage is an area that I already have some, and I would like to develop it further. 

            The last medicine I searched for was Integrity.  The Christmas light for Integrity was a good choice because I think that everyone is incredibly different because we each have our own unique light to shine.  I feel like sometimes I feel so different from the people around me that I try to do everything I can to fit in.  And that’s usually hard when my text books are twice the regular size and so are my papers…!  I don’t know if it’s because of this activity or just because I’m tired of trying to be like everyone else, but I’ve really started to come out of my little insecure place and just accept that I’m a little bit different.  I don’t really know what I expected to happen, but no one really noticed; which is exactly what I would have hoped for!  I have recently started being completely me and I’m finished worrying about what other people think!

            This scavenger hunt was really good for me.  It made me look at who I am and how I act and then evaluate what I could do better to be true to myself and act the way I would like to act.  I think that since this assignment has been over, I have a much better idea of who I really am.  

So, during my time being sick and home alone, I was looking at fail blog.  I know…i’m REALLY sick… I seemed to find this INCREDIBLY funny…again…this could just be the sickness…in fact…it probably is…!

again…its probably just the fever!

so i love to have a packed weekend…much like the one i had this weekend.  On friday i hung out some people at my house and then saturday i hung out with other people at their house and then sunday i volunteered for community service.  that was all INCREDIBLY fun! (and p.s. i got a new cell phone on saturday…so that was even better…this is only the second phone i’ve ever had…and considering that my other one was missing the 8 and the 5 keys i think it was more than time!). but then…i got home and it was time to do homework.  i have SOOO much to do and no time to get any of it done! somewhat frustrating…but i guess it’s really my own fault when it gets right down to it. not that it makes it any less frustrating!

So…guess what happened last Thursday! I FINALLY GOT APPROVED FOR ACCOMMODATIONS BY THE COLLEGE BOARD!!!!!!!!!!! woot! now i finally actually get a large print test to go with my large print answer sheet! it only took 6 months and 4 accommodation applications to get accepted, but it finally happened! I finally actually get to register for a test like every other high school kid and i finally actually get to take one too! i’m sooooo happy! Now all i have to do is apply for accommodations for the ACT…hmmm…haha!

so…i’m in photography class…and we had a test.  I completely got an ABSOLUTE grade of F on that test.  I happen to LOVE photography…the class is amazing and i enjoy every day that i go to it.  But this brought my solid A grade down to a D-.  I want to scream and run in circles till i get too dizzy to continue.  This is an art class…i don’t like having tests in art classes.  that is why i take them. specifically because they’re fun and i wont’ have tests.  so now i suppose i’m going to have to do extra assignments (if any are available) to try to get extra good grades to bring that back up.  boo to my photography life.

so…this might be just what you need to get a little giggle out and get yourself feeling happy again! might not work if you’re a french student…sorry! but if you’re in spanish…you’ll LOVE it (at least i did)!  Just follow the link and enjoy!

La Policia Mexicana 

P.S. It’s from Saturday Night Live…so it’s legit!

I like community service class.  I really don’t mind it and think it’s kind of fun.  I really do enjoy doing community service.  But one thing that is SERIOUSLY frustrating me right now is when i try to call the people to volunteer and then I can’t get them to call me back.  But, I persisted, and made an appointment to meet them so they could sign my papers and now i’m going to get a blood test and TB shots because i’m working in a hospital.  So all was well.  Now i’m playing the waiting game.  I hate this because i have to get the first shot and a blood test and then wait 2 weeks and get the other shot.  but in the mean time i will be getting anxious and incredibly nervous because i can’t handle this stress.  i hate knowing i have to get a certain number of hours per week and then stress about weather i’m going to get them done or not.  i want to do service because i enjoy it. i don’t like having to stress over it!

This is the time of year i love to hate.  i enjoy picking out my classes and creating my year for myself, but i must say…this is stressful.  there are so many things i want to take because they sound fun but those stupid required classes just get in my way! who needs physics anyway?! plus to take all the classes that i want to take i’m going to have to take 0 hour…again…my SENIOR year…boo. but i guess it’s all in the name of edcation…? maybe.

seriously.  what more do they WANT from me?! all i’m trying to do is take a stupid SAT! of course, being me, nothing can really be that easy because i have to be approved for large print and extended time.  but, silly me, i thought college board actually WANTED me to take that test!  i have applied for accommodations 4 times, and yesterday marked rejection number 4! the first letters they used to send me to reject me said, “accommodations can not be provided at this time because sufficient information has not been provided.” well…ok…? i mean, we sent them every report we had to explain everything but apparently that wasn’t enough.  but we remained hopeful through two more rejections after we supplied even more information and applied a fourth time.  The fourth (and most recent) rejection letter we received in the mail was a little different. it said, “congratulations!” (this was just to spite me, i’m pretty sure) “our vision experts have confirmed that you are now approved for 50% extended time, a large block answer sheet, and extra breaks for resting your eyes.”  congratulations were in order for that? really? what all of that means is that i get time and a half (which is good cause i can actually use that) extra eye-resting breaks (good again) and a large print answer sheet. but not, and i repeat NOT a large print TEST. well what good is that?! so…ok…i can fill in the answers, but to what questions?! as far as i’m concerned the test book they’re going to give me will be blank.  that 8pt. font just isn’t big enough when your vision is 20/200-ish.  go figure! so if any of you out there that are planning to take an SAT sometime soon, if you wouldn’t mind adding a small note at the bottom of your scantron sheet declaring your support for me and my battle against college board, it would be much appreciated!  prayers and good thoughts are good too!

exactly…that’s all i have to say about them.  UGG boots are absolutely the most ridiculous things i have ever seen in my life.  They’re furry and look like bear feet because they’re so big.  I sincerely appologise to those of you who wear them religiously but i absolutely can’t stand them anymore.  i don’t even see the appeal.  how can wearing something furry and tall and ankle-trapping be happy and trendy?  i mean i know i’m not one to talk. i dress the most out of style a teenager coudl possibly get but i’m happy.  and i know it makes some of you happy to wear them and i’m glad you have found something so wonderful, but just know this: every time i see them i’m puking a little in my mouth.  and considering that almost every girl at brebeuf wears them now i’m internally puking a million times a day.  It’s stressful!